Wild thoughts on loss

How do we overcome losing someone we Love dearly?

Day after day we pick up and move on

We carry on

We move beyond what we believe humanly possible

And we smile again,

We laugh at a joke

We celebrate a win...

So in a way life carries on.

But I often wonder if it will ever stop hurting?

Just because it feels different

Does it mean it doesn't hurt anymore?

When they part from this world

some say is a goodbye

others a see you later...

What makes it hurt?

The belief that we won't ever see them again

or

the physical attachment we have in this world?

I am a believer that

we are forever connected

I am them and they are me.

But constantly I dream and feel their presence

and it hurts

because I miss them...

As being here and now

I am as humanely as possible vulnerable

I choose

I cry

I reminisce

And what feels different

From

those we have lost and are still alive

and those that have parted this world?

Maybe hope...

Or maybe is our subcontinent and the moral conditioning we went through

to make us feel less vulnerable when someone walks away

then when a soul leaves a body.

Again

regardless of our deepest beliefs

it still hurts

It rips up our heart

from inside out

And is sore every time we touch it.

Because when we lose someone

all it matters is that we now have an empty hole

in our life without somebody, we cared used to be...

In Loving memory of my Godmother Raquel Jordao and her husband (Jordao),

I love you always.

with Love Dinha xx

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